Journey

The journey, long,

My feet, trudge on

To the tune of

A mournful song.

How long, how long?

Must we endure

This hopeless, helpless life

Without a cure?

The days are bleak,

Of which I seldom speak....

Run one into the other,

And then Repeat.

The road I walk,

Solitary and forlorn

Has been walked

By others who've gone before.

I see the signs along the way,

Encouraging me to endure and stay.

Be faithful. Be true.

There is still much to do.

Is it too much to ask?

For happiness?

For love returned?

A shoulder to cry on?

Or a hand to hold?

Loneliness, my boon companion,

Despondency, my lover.

They are faithful to the end,

More so than any other.

Later Dayz,

Starr

Live Free

Parents. They die. Abandoning us and leaving us bereft and unable to function. Especially if we are caregivers.

Parents leave us at the emotional baggage depot holding baggage that is not our own. Our parents' fuck-ups should never have been ours. Yet, they die and leave us emotionally traumatised and unable to cope with the very big, real world without them in it.  

To be free one must forgive and grieve  properly. 

I know. I had much to forgive! It doesn't change what happened or how your parents treated you, but it does free you from the bonds and shackles they imposed. 

At some point we HAVE to grow up and realise WE are responsible for US. It is our choice now, whether or not we live in the shadows of our parents or validate every hurt they inflicted through their carelessness and selfishness. 

We were children. This emotional burden, It is NOT ours to bear. Ever. It's all on them! 

Life is for the living. Live free. Anything less is mere existence. 

Later Dayz,

Starr

My Friend

I feel so fucking helpless you know. 

I know you're hurting and I know even if I was there I couldn't really do anything except crawl into the darkness with you and hold you and cry with you. Or for you since you never cry. 

So I'll just do it from here and pray you'll soon see better days ahead, knowing that they are coming. I have faith.

Nothing lasts forever. 

Not the sunshine, not the rain. 

Not the good, and damn sure not the pain. Without the rain we'd never see a rainbow.

Hold fast. When you're at the end of the rope, tie a knot, and hold on.

I can't imagine the world without you in it. You are a beautiful soul and you have been a good friend when you really didn't have any reason to be.

Don't think on the many What Might Have Beens or what you perceive as Failures. Those are merely opportunities by which we learn Who and How Strong we are.

Think on the What May Yet Be. Work towards that end. There is still a lot of life to be lived; loved. 

Walk towards that Light. I'll be there where our Horizons meet.

Later days,

Starlight